Being twenty something.. !!

Yeah... I am back again.. ! Had founf the article on the internet a couple of years back. When i read it for the first time, i could relate to it almost entirely. Thought would put it up here.. atleast to keep the poor D's Diary get going.. ! :)

Take a deep breathe and ponder for a while.. !!

Being Twenty-Something ..

They call it the "Quarter-Life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that maybe, those friends that you thought were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean, or insincere but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job...and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling onto the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hookups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts lto look pathetic You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, and the future and making a life for yourself...and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.. Just that some of us are past this experience.. some of us may be going through it.. And the rest will go through it.

Cheers.. !!
Till Next time..

Dhruvin

Resolutions...

"Half an hour earlier is the success of life".. Have grown up listening to these words from grandpa.. but still struggling to implement them..

But thats Okey.. although half a month late, finally, i have decided my new year resolutions..

1. My only present passion is to find out my passion. If a few months back i was interested in nothing specific, i now my self taking interest in too many things at a time.

Confused as always.. ! !

And so, the resolution is - To clear the clutter and try to pursue a couple of activities/hobbies /extra currics/interests/etcetc which as per my resume, gives me a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction.

2. "Be Positive" .. Last it was heard of only in the motivational books and blood groups.. but never in my grade sheets.. so let me try and keep my head further above the "sea level"... atleast in this term.. and the next..

3. To be a more regular blogger.. so that all of you are not deprived of the life saving gyan.. ! Or atleast hitting this page more often.. so that the numbers on the counter don't get bored..

4. To record all the on campus experiences... as i see every other person writing about all the intersting stuff happening on the most coveted campuses.. who knows, it ight well be the only source of income in case the recession continues.. !! :)

5. Start an NGO for the sensex affected people .. any contributors.. ! ?? :)


Cheers.. !

Till next time..

Dhruvin.

Life at IIM..!

If there's one thing that has taken most of my time during the last four months - except sleeping of course- it has to be F-R-I-E-N-D-S ..!! It is simply awesome.. !:)

Filled with Emotions, Romance, Drama, Sex, Comedy, Beauties, Witty one liners, Joy and of course Joe..! This fun filled series really strike a cord with me.. !  

Wait.

Now don't you expect me to analyze it as to why so and what was so different than the other similar ones.. ! I don't know and - honestly - I don't care.. ! 

I take it and like it for just what it is - like most of the other things.. ! Almost Everything.

Sometimes I really think whether I am too indifferent to most of the things. Is it really necessary to have opinions about these things, or rather EVERYTHING..!! ? I have seen people around who are genuinely knowledgeable and opined on these things - from the concepts of Mahabharata to Greek Culture to Movies to Cars to Cartoons to Books to Science and also, on almost all the persons around...!

And lemme tell you.. sometimes you feel like a complete waste and idiot when standing with them over a cup of coffee..!! 

I have felt this before and so have genuinely tried to improve too - or rather change myself - :) But it doesn't work out.. ! Really, I mean, I am fundamentally not interested in nor comfortable with banging my head on something which doesn't affect me.. at least not in any direct way.. ! 

So.. Live in the present. Care for the things around you. Try to be above the 'C' level and enjoy life.. ! :)

That's my little philosophy of life@IIM.

May be I am right. May be I am not. I don't know..! 

But does that matter too.. ???? :)

Cheers.. ! 

Till next time,

Dhruvin.

The CAT Mania...

Its the D Day again.. ! The deciding dreaded day has come again.. ! And by the time I write this, has past also.. ! Hard work, speculation and fear are going to be replaced by excitement, hope  and relief. But hold on guys, as they say the real battle starts after CAT.

Millions of posts are being written on CAT and rightly so when you have more  than 2.5 Lacs people going for it with almost 15-20% increase every year.. ! And then there are social loafers like me who wont mind taking clues from various posts but would contribute little. Or may be, I just saved a lot of people from reading again the same old posts, full of strategies, advices and what not.. !! 

But anyways, I found myself writing this as I follow the events of the day closely. The 3 grand attempts aren't seem to be enough and I find my self, again, sitting down, opening PG and reading all the events and happening meticulously. Once a cattie, always a cattie.. ! :)

Invariably this reminds me of the last year, which I believed was going to be my last attempt for CAT. I had to get past this one. And with my abysmal performance in the earlier two, the stakes to prove one's self were even higher.. ! But then this time, the journey proved to be fruitful. All the jugglaries like cut offs, attempts, accuracy, score, rank, percentile, sectional, verbal, quant, RC and what not, finally seemed to favor my cause. At last, I did manage to pull it till the very end.. ! Fierce, sacred, respectable - The CAT - was belled.

Perhaps, this is the only exam, which involves a lot of emotions - as for most, like me, it becomes a question of to be or not to be until you crack it and unless you are some born intelligent, it'll take some time before finally managing it. The famous world "Meri Kahani" on PG proves as a testimony for that. Its worth to spend a few minutes to go through it. Some of them are a wonderfully written experiences.

Anyways, wish you all the takers, the very best for the results.. !! May the best man win...!

Till next time,

Cheers.. ! 

Dhruvin.

The QT Disaster...

Nah.. this isn't about my pathetic quantitative technique grades... its rather about a 'Cutie Disaster'.. ! :)

Now, how many times do we imagine that the empty seat right next to us will house some cutie...!! All of us.. invariably.. !  And sometimes it does come out to be true... !! 

I remembered this incident just before a couple of days.. It was just on the previous Diwali, that i was going to Delhi for some stupid documentation work. I was pissed of as I would be reaching home just on the Diwali night. And so wasn't really excited about this trip.

So, coming to the point. I saw her standing right at the door of my compartment, presumably with his brother or boy friend. (Nah, it was her boy friend.) I checked up my seat, upper birth, and sat there without thinking much about her. 15 more minutes and the train started moving. And There she was in the same compartment..! Now she wasn't really breathtakingly beautiful or anything, but she was cute and was also travelling alone and had the upper birth just opposite to mine.. ! Also, given the average age of all the other passenger in the compartment was above 50, I was really looking forward for some conversation and was thinking about the same mentally...

Just around the same time, the famous men-in-black of the train came. A rather huge one. I showed my ticket and he moved on to check hers. As it turned out, the poor lady was desperately searching for her ticket. And as it turned out, the boyfriend had forgotten to hand over the ticket to her.. ! 

To avoid any scene, she went out and tried calling him in vain. TT wasn't in any mood to let go and even shouted on her a couple of times.. ! The veterans in our compartment started the gossip. ! "They were so busy with each other.. No wonder she forgot the ticket.. ! ", one lady commented. I just smiled wearily at her.

Poor lady came in and asked TT to wait for sometime till she figured out some way. She didn't have the cash too and was on the verge of crying. We offered to help but she didn't agree. Apparently, they found a way to deliver her the ticket through the Ratlam station master or some such arrangement and the matter was solved. she cried for about half an hour and then straight went up and slept till the time Delhi arrived. The fellow tried calling like 60 times but she wouldn't pick up..  :)

Bu anyways,  all the mental techniques I had started thinking on were a complete fiasco and all hopes shattered.. ! Once More.. !

nah... never mind... at least it kept me busy and occupied in otherwise a boring journey.. ! :)

Cheers.. !

Till next time,

Dhruvin.

PS: Does the above post make any sense.. !!!!!! ??

The Choice...

Scene 1:

Q: So dhruvin, why do you want to go in for a sales and marketing profile?

Ans: Sir, I think I am good at Execution. I have been involved in various execution projects during my job as well as engineering and I really do not feel comfortable while planning out things. I believe I am good at and also like to maintaining lasting relationships with people. I have been travelling a lot and have enjoyed it thoroughly. Plus operations and IT are not my favourites. And I am not really good at numbers. So i believe I am best suited for S&M.

1 day later:

Q: So dhruvin, why do you want to go in for a finance profile?

Ans: Sir, Whatever little I have learnt till now, in our accounting, macro economics and finance subjects, I have found my self comfortable with the same and also found it interesting. I am interested in stock markets too and have been an investor for nearly 2 years now. IT and operations aren't my favourites. And I believe, I lack the creativity and the witty and smart sense of talking, as characterized in any marketing job. Combined these, I believe finance would be the most suitable career for me.

Now, what the hack.. !

I had developed these answers essentially for the summers, but actually have ended up believing in both of them !!! What to do.. !

I remember my engineering days where in we studied not less than 48 subjects - Design, Manufacturing, Refrigeration, Air conditioning, Thermal Engineering, Metallurgy, Fluid Engineering and what not.. ! All I used during my work were some concepts of half a chapter of a power plant engineering book.. !- Domkundwar.. ! I still remember.. !! :)

So the point is, does that really make a difference to think and make an informed choice.. ! If I had really liked design, did I have an option to join a firm which offered me a design job.. ! Nah, We dint have that luxury - at least at that time..

But may be, better to make an informed choice.. As they have rightly said, "Destiny is a matter of choice.. " !

So, well, i guess I'll have to start thinking over it again from scratch. And hopefully would come up with an answer at least by the time i have to opt for one of them.

Meanwhile, when you've taken this much of a pain to read up til here and I am sure you do know me as you have been able to locate this obscure blog, why don't you suggest something.. ! And I am serious about it.. ! :)

Cheers.. !

Till next time,

Dhruvin.

PS: Read this a while ago - "Ask for what you want - you may get it.. ! " :)

The BT- Breakup Therapy

Now, as a rule of thumb most people think that all the spicy things that people write in their blogs are actually incidents from their own lives. So let me make it very clear - This isn't about me, ok? I just wish i have had someone to breakup with.. ! :)

Anyways, we all hear this word a hell lot of a times, from different people. Firstly, there are , lets say, poor people - or emotional people, who actually break down when there is a breakup. Then, we have those smart people who, i believe, feel kinda proud when they breakup and use it as a stepping stone to achieve higher girls; oops sorry; goals, in life. And we have a third kind of people who just feel like breaking up and then again tying up with the same person. I really call these people as maniacs and I am yet to understand their philosophy.. !

But sometimes, I am just amazed by some of these people when they willingly or unwillingly use this to achieve some higher goals - Personal or more often professional ones.

May be we could make this concept commercial. Charge a nominal fees and get people on a common platform -Provide them with atmosphere and incentives to first enter into a relationship., continue it for some time. Then systematically through variety of means to break it up.

Who knows, if PT hasn't been working for you all long, BT might just do the trick.. ! :)

Cheers.. !

Till next time,

Dhruvin.

PS: the blog is intended to purely to give space to the random thoughts. Any efforts to find any meaning out of it are strictly prohibited.:)

The Nuke Deal...

The much awaited and the much talked about nuke drama finally coming to an end, or lets say happy end.. ! The hard negotiations and lobbying by the government finally paying off as the deal has already been approved by the house of representatives and due to get through the senate as well.

Much has been written and we all know what we tend to gain. The access to nuclear technology, the fuel and all the know how.

But when I sit back and think about it, just imagine how hard it would be for our scientists, who have put years of research and hard work behind developing our own thorium based technology. They have succeeded in the first phase and we are having running thorium based reactors at a couple of places. They also have developed the prototypes of converting this thorium into enriched uranium and using it for production of power on a larger scale.

These are the people who put in their lives into the project they love and I am really not sure whether they have any enthusiasm to continue with it. Anyways, our spending on the R&D isn't the highest and this deal will certainly result into reductions of that I guess. Try putting in our selves into their places. Its not that easy man..!

Even otherwise, in how many sectors we have promoted and succeeded in developing indigenous technologies? I can think of only space and our software industries. All the core sectors like manufacturing and hard core design still depends upon the foreign technologies. And worst, we are not even trying to address this issue. There are hardly a couple of organizations in the country which actually carry out any serious research activities.

May be this is one area which we need to address. Or wait ! Should we focus on quality primary education first?

As Robert Frost rightly said, "Miles to go before I sleep".. !


Till next time,

Dhruvin.

Problen Solving

After all, A manager is supposed to be a problem solving man.. ! :)

PS: The image has been put up for the sole purpose of fun. No charges of plagiarism shall be entertainned. :)

Cheers.. !

Till next time,

Dhruvin.

Lnt Memories - 2 - The Encounter...

There are a few incidents in one’s life which gets embedded in to the hard disk of a human brain. Describing one such incident – don’t worry, just the highlights :)

It was the first day at my job after a weeklong series of presentations and finally I was assigned to a department and was waiting to meet the head. He was in fact the vice president of the unit. There were seven of us waiting in the nearby meeting room of the den where the lion resided.

As it had to be, I was chosen as the first casualty and he called me in.

Contrary to all the expectations about being welcomed in the department and blah-blah, this moron dint smile once. Within the first two minutes I scored and so got my first promotion right there – from a GET to “Bloody Bugger”. And it was just the starting. As I enlightened him with some quality mechanical engineering knowledge, I kept on getting the adjectives during that interview which perhaps were too personal to be written over here. Still I’ll give you some of the sixes that he hit on me.

Dialogue 1: “Gentleman, If all what you think would have been true, half the girls of this world would have been raped”

Dialogue 2: “You bugger, if you are masturbating in a river and it happens that a nude woman is standing in the same river, and by chance if she gets pregnant, that doesn’t mean you have raped her.”

Dialogue 3: “Do you think electrical engineers have bigger balls than you?”
I was about to faint when he finally let me out of the cabin.

Subsequently, came to know that it was a routine and I just faced the trailer whereas the other bosses went on a for full movie..!! :)

PS: Now this is what you call the real OB and effective communication...!

Cheers ...!

Till Next time.
Dhruvin.